Different Perspective ?

Well I had my 21st birthday last month on the 15th. And the only thing I have to show from it is a great night out drinking in Clemson with my wonderful boyfriend and some of his friends and a party that pretty much sucked. Why is it that now I'm older, I'm feeling more confined in my place in life? I'm still living at home with parents, have a shit job, and can only see my above mentioned boyfriend twice a month (I moved 2 hours away). I just want to live with him in our own apartment and us both have jobs that pay the bills and be engaged but barely talking about getting married. Because right now all I want to be in engaged. It might be weird but I really don't care about the wedding part. We could get married by his mom in a freaking backyard for all I care. I just want to be together and it be permanent in the eyes of everyone who believes in marriage. I'm mostly tired of being so far away from him and being stuck in this place away from any semblance of fun and friends. Every time I go where my friends are, they're either too busy with work or the other part of their lives that doesn't have anything to do with high school. I just miss how things used to be when I lived closer to them and was living in a more fun town than the one I'm in now. I feel trapped at bored, and this entry really makes no sense because I'm rambling. To make it short. I want out. Of here. And in a house with my man near my friends and starting a new chapter in my life. That's what I need.